10th March 2016, Prismacolor pencils on A3 cartridge paper
Sometimes it looks like life presents you with an open door. Sometimes it’s all just in your head. You dream about walking through the door. Then when reality happens and the door slams, it breaks your heart.
Now you see the door for what it was all along: a closed one. And it hurts to know that it was all in your head. You feel stupid because you saw things that weren’t there. You read the signs wrong. The opportunity wasn’t yours.
Then you realise it was a good thing the door closed because if you walked in to an opportunity that wasn’t meant for you, you would have turned in to someone else. You would have tried to be the person the door was meant for.
So it’s better that the door slammed before you could walk through it. You’re thankful for the damage that was avoided but it still hurts and it doesn’t stop the tears. It can set you back and it can take a long time to get over the disappointment and disillusionment.
You hope that one day you can trust yourself again, dream again, and believe that there is a door meant for you. You hope you will see it when it’s in front of you and that you will have the courage to walk through it.
You don’t want to let a closed door stop you from walking through an open one.